SHARING SILENCE

HOW RUAH DESTROYS LIVES


A Memoir


#RuahRuinsLives


#SharingSilence

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DATE UNKNOWN - LIFE STOLEN

Using backdoor I coded to access site 😉

All 2FA codes on laptop, phone broken. No access to the outside world. AGORAPHOBIC, can't access any my online accounts to order anything, can't access my bank to transfer money, can't ring anyone to assist. Only system is a ancient android tablet that can't even update Google Chrome

My online accounts linked to this site are frozen, even imgur. I don't require one to upload but that is the level, to try silence me.

ANYONE - PHONE & LAPTOP NEEDED!

9 separate criminal charges filed as of 3rd July. 9 individuals have or will be getting a police visit for personal and corporate devices. FOI still in action and under 15 days to be legally compliant but can't without legally breaking own conditions. Good luck with that.

Police report incorrectly filed, statements false; lawyer(s). Lying on police documents tsk tsk.

All paperwork intact from 12 years onwards, all contracts. Further proof also obtained. Dan called you 😆 thanks for crucial information that proves the failure prior to NDIA/NDIS introduction into WA. Also, Sabrina for finding and delivering such information.

No names, no bail conditions breached. BITE ME! 😊👻

Sound + Brightness = Max

an immersive experience

of an autistic mind

a neurological ghost

phone = best experience

This Is Not Revenge - This Is Reclamation

This isn’t about noise, shame, or tearing anyone down. This is a true story — of what happens when the systems built to protect collapse, and a man is left to vanish inside their cracks.

When I tried to reconnect, to ask for help, the system didn’t just fail again — It compounded the harm. It went quiet. It hid behind bureaucracy. It turned its face away. This site began as a memoir. A personal attempt to heal — not a campaign, not a case. Ruah wasn’t even part of the original frame. But they made themselves part of it — through choices, inaction, and silence delivered with precision.

They broke something that had already survived everything else. And out of that break, something began to rise. I don’t know what it is yet — only that it’s real, it’s burning, and it will not go back into the dark.

RECLAMATION - RESTITUTION

I am reclaiming the life they stole — and I will hold accountable every structure that enabled the theft of safety, care, and time. Because now I have to seek private trauma-informed support, just to survive what public systems were supposed to protect me from.

This isn’t about what’s easy. This is about what’s left, when you have no choice.

🟥 ALERT: As of 17 June 2025, a state-wide red flag has been issued across mental health services regarding Ruah Community Services. Ruah is not to be contacted, consulted, or involved in any matter relating to the author or their case. This red flag is not just personal — Ruah is now formally flagged as a systemic risk within the mental health sector.

📛 Access Revoked – Red Flags Issued: as of 20th June 2025 Red flags have now been placed at Housing Choices and Medical Centres. All third-party access to records, referrals, or updates has been terminated. Freedom of Information requests have been submitted and are now active across these entities. A full record of all backchannel contact will be retrieved and logged. This revocation comes 3 days after Alma Street state wide red flag was issued. It applies to all domains and contexts in which Ruah previously operated.

🩺 Community Psychiatric Care Notice – Hospital Unsafe Designation: As of 26th June 2025, due to the inaction and systemic negligence of Debra Zanella and Louise Ardagh, I am now formally under community-based psychiatric care.

This designation was not chosen — it was necessitated.

Hospitals are now officially deemed unsafe environments due to a combination of autistic sensory needs and the trauma response cascade triggered by Ruah’s prolonged abandonment. I am no longer able to safely access first-response systems — including hospitals, police, ambulance, or crisis services — without risk of psychological destabilisation. I am now functionally barred from basic healthcare due entirely to Ruah’s institutional failure and the inaction of those responsible for intervening. Dr. Sandy Chong is also aware and has knowingly abdicated her duty of care, choosing deflection over accountability. Her silence is not neutral — it is harm by omission. Rabia Siddique, a very well-known humanitarian, has been fully briefed on the harm being caused — and has chosen silence over action.

This statement reflects the lived medical, psychological, and legal experience of the author. All claims are grounded in documentation, correspondence, clinical records, and active formal complaint proceedings. This message is not defamatory and is protected under applicable Australian law concerning free expression, trauma testimony, and disability-related advocacy.

📅 Legal Attendance Notice – Friday, 4th July 2025: As of this week, formal legal notices of an upcoming accountability meeting have been issued to the following individuals:

The meeting is scheduled for Friday, 4th July. I will be attending using my weekly food budget to make the journey — a direct cost to my health and survival — in order to be present and accountable. We will see whether those responsible for years of silence and harm have the spine to show up, or whether they will leave me standing alone once again — unheard, unfed, and still holding the truth they refuse to face.

Dr Sandy Chong

Let's see.

If they do not show, the outcome will not be forgotten. Nor will it remain private.

🟥 ALERT: 2 July 2025, ARRESTED, LAPTOP SIEZED, ALL ACCOUNTS ENCRYPTED AND NEED THAT DEVICE. CANT BUY FOOD, CANT 2FA. HIDING BEHIND COMMONWEALTH LAW. DOWN NOT OUT, FAST TRACKED - PAPERWORK FROM 12+ YEARS ILP. 🤐👮🏼‍♂️🚔🚨

A National Disgrace in Plain Sight

What This Is:

This website documents the abandonment, systemic failure, and recent misconduct by Ruah Community Services and associated entities. It is not just a personal story. It is a verified, time-stamped, and digitally archived record of an older autistic person left without support, protection, or response for nearly a decade. What was ignored in silence is now public.

The Past 8 Years:

  • Mid 2010s, Ruah helped secure NDIS access for an autistic man in Western Australia.
  • Immediately after, all support collapsed. Ruah abandoned contact. No case management, no safeguarding.
  • Over the next 8 years, the man remained unsupported, isolated, and unknown to any system.
  • No housing stability, no service accountability, and no recognition of his condition.
  • His identity, medical risks, and lived experience were erased.

The Past Month (May–June 2025):

  • In May 2025, contact was re-established. Urgent risk, harm, and suicide concerns were raised directly to Ruah.
  • Multiple staff became aware. Formal legal correspondence followed. Internal teams acknowledged receipt.
  • No action was taken. No safeguarding intervention. No welfare checks. No response within legal deadlines.
  • Emails were dodged, messages ignored, and office staff deflected responsibility.
  • When the story became public, Ruah delayed. Then lied. Then blamed the system they are part of.

Why This Matters:

  • This isn’t an internal complaint. This is systemic failure with public risk.
  • Disability rights, duty of care, and legal protections were all ignored.
  • Every silence became evidence. Every delay became harm.
  • This case reveals what happens when no one is watching—until someone documents everything.

For Journalists, Legal Professionals, and Advocates:

You are not reading a blog. You are reading a case file.

Everything on this site is verifiable.

All names, emails, and records are traceable.

Start with the Memoir. End with Accountability.

June 2, 2025

😓Pressure Buildup, Still No Release

Nightmares persisted — less vivid, but sleep still fractured. Woke multiple times in silence, no sense of rest.

Emotional state: flattened. Not numb, just drained beyond response.

Mental clarity intact — but internal urgency building.

No reply from Ruah. No outreach. No sign of motion.

Physical Health:

Mental State:

Summary:

System pressure increasing.

Still no intervention.

Still no relief.

Still no food.

Still no sign of life from the ones who broke this.

1st July 2025

🩸Psychological + Physical Updates

C-PTSD night terrors have returned and escalated.

Waking roughly every 2 hours, soaked in sweat, confused, heart pounding.

Dreams include trauma flashbacks, distorted memory loops, and abandonment triggers.

Still unable to eat properly. Appetite is flickering back, but there’s no food in the house.

Money set aside for Friday transport — survival budget override.

Body exhausted. Mind still sharp. No support contact received.

Silence is still the loudest response.

Physical Health:

Mental State:

  • Emotional bandwidth: near zero. Holding space only for survival, not healing.
  • Internal dissociation rising. Conversations happen in fragments, hours late.
  • Sensory overload from heat, sound, and light. Masking fatigue critical.
  • No medical or welfare contact. No physio follow-up. No glasses. No food.
  • Time feels unstable. Urgent but stalled. Forward motion blocked by silence.
  • Today’s priority: don't collapse. Nothing else fits.
  • hmm?
    hmm?

    HMM?

    Access attempt again

    25th june 2025

    It's not Wordpress, those won't work.

    Fight bot mode is enabled, so was a manual attempt.

    Same returning user, same path used.

    IT Watching

    25th june 2025

    Clearly not trying to hide themselves.

    ASN Footprints

    ASN ruah blocked cloudflare

    Blocked at Cloudflare level.

    LinkedIn Stats

    Linkedin Stats Ruah ASD cloudflare

    Patterns are my happy place.

    LinkedIn Footprints

    ASN ruah LinkedIn Footprints blocked cloudflare

    One profile linked. Two removed photos. Three locked. One blocked. Visibility doesn’t shift. Silence holds.

    Dr Sandy Chong

    Dr Sandy Chong

    Ambassador for Ruah. Chose to block and hide.

    AHPRA BOARD

    Dr Sandy Chong

    Her own colleagues are watching

    Carrd Walking

    CARRD PATH WALKIN

    'sharingsilence.carrd.co'

    Mental health month

    MENTAL HEALTH MONTH June Ruah

    The month of my Mum's death. (her name was also June)

    Downloads

    Ruah Google Analytics

    Late Saturday Night 21st June 🤦‍♂️.

    Legal letter hit

    Ruah Legal Sue Mental Health

    Downloads?

    Fake LinkedIn account used to view profile

    Only Ruah know my full name. This is to protect my children, not me..

    Attempted to access my account.

    Failed Porkbun login attempt

    Access Denied!

    🪞Microsoft Says Hi!

    Failed creepers microsoft ruah

    Repeatedly. Silently. Awkwardly. ✨Digital creepers peeking through the blinds✨

    When Safety Stops Existing

    They talk about home care like it's some kind of accommodation. A solution. A support. It’s not. It’s containment.

    I didn’t choose home-based psychiatric care because I prefer it. I was forced into it — not by a doctor, but by a world that made every other option dangerous.

    Hospitals aren’t safe for me. Housing inspections aren’t safe. Phone calls, door knocks, strangers with clipboards — they trigger shutdown. Every official system comes with a script, and every script ignores who I am. So I disappeared — because that’s what you do when nothing recognizes you.

    I wasn’t hiding. I was trying to survive.

    I can’t even feel safe in my own home anymore.

    My door doesn’t feel like a boundary — it feels like a target. Emails from housing workers come with threats disguised as protocol. The fear doesn’t come from being evicted. It comes from knowing they could enter, inspect, accuse — and nobody would stop them. Because they hold the rules. Because they know I can’t explain myself in time. Because they can write the version of events that gets believed.

    Even when I try to protect myself — even when I write, explain, beg — I get silence. Or warnings.

    That’s not care. That’s psychological warfare dressed in admin.

    I don’t trust the police. Not after last time. They came for a welfare check, but I was the one who paid for it. The knock on the door didn’t come with safety — it came with escalation. Now every unexpected noise sends a signal through my spine: they’re here again.

    I didn’t end up on home care because it works. I ended up here because the systems designed to care for people like me broke me.

    And they’re still breaking me. Quietly. Systematically. Paper by paper. Silence by silence.

    This isn’t treatment

    This is survival inside a slow collapse.

    And I’m still here. But barely.

    📡THE BOARD WHO BLOCKED AND RAN

    The CEO and CFO followed, now GM and Board. Some still watch and do nothing — hiding, shielding, avoiding public connection to the truth.

    But here’s what they forgot:
    Their own website displays every name and face.
    Even if they delete or edit now — it’s too late.

    All pages have been archived:

    • Wayback Machine
    • Internet Archive
    • Google Cache

    Their silence is documented. Their faces are preserved. The truth cannot be erased.

    📡Original Settlement Offer Terms

    I was fair. I was reasonable.
    I offered them the chance to control the public narrative.
    I asked for a private resolution — on one symbolic date:
    The anniversary of my mum’s death. Her name was June. The date was June 6.

    That wasn’t just a number on a calendar. That was a chance to heal — to close a wound she left me, through action instead of legacy.

    But here’s what they forgot:
    – I still have the original offer.
    – So do some of their frontline staff.
    – And Debra replied on the exact anniversary — with a cold, evasive delay.

    Their silence was not just inaction. It was timed. The one date that mattered to me — they chose to ignore it. And now, the offer they buried… will speak louder than they ever did.

    📡 PDF Releases

    🔗 Ruah – Legal Notice 🔒Download
    🔗 Settlement Offer 🔒Download
    🔗 Shannon – Legal Notice 🔒Download
    🔗 Meridian – Legal Notice 🔒Download

    📡PDF Releases (21 June 2025)

    🔗 Braden Hill🔒⏲️Download
    🔗 Carmen Acosta🔒Download
    🔗 Debra Zanella🔒Download
    🔗 Sandy Chong🔒Download
    🔗 Duc Fam🔒Download
    🔗 Elsie Blay🔒Download
    🔗 Gail Beck🔒Download
    🔗 Graham Donnelly🔒Download
    🔗 Jessica (Scheduling)🔒Download
    🔗Jodie Harding🔒Download
    🔗 Justine RobertsDownload
    🔗 Mark Slattery🔒Download
    🔗 Louise Ardagh🔒Download
    🔗 Michael ShannonDownload
    🔗 Monica Juricev🔒Download
    🔗Nina Anderson🔒Download
    🔗Rabia Siddique🔒Download
    🔗Rachael (Scheduling)🔒Download
    🔗Shelia Jay🔒Download
    🔗Sylvia Meier🔒Download
    🔗 Tony Curry🔒Download
    🔗IT Department🔒Download

    Legal notices sent via legal advocate Shannon Mony, CC'd known Ruah addresses.

    Elsie Blay — Ruah Executive

    Elsie Blay — LinkedIn

    "over 15 years experience in the health and community sector." "committed to making sure systems work around the most vulnerable and disadvantaged people in our community."

    – Elsie Blay

    Alleged mother. Registered nurse. Public health expert.
    Champion of homelessness services. Disability sector leader.
    Executive Manager of Services, Ruah Community Services — since circa 2017.
    Responsible for overseeing day-to-day operations across all Ruah programs: mental health, family and domestic violence, homelessness, disability.

    In her own public words, a voice for women, children, the homeless, and the disabled.
    A defender of those left behind.
    A builder of safe spaces — where no one would be isolated, starving, or left in fear.

    That is the role she claimed. The mission she led. The system she managed.

    What follows is the truth of what happened under her watch.

    And why her silence — and her organisation’s failureerased an autistic father from his children’s lives, left a man starving alone for years, and directly violated every value she publicly espoused.

    This is not an opinion.
    It is documented fact.
    It is a matter of public record.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Debra Zanella — Ruah Executive

    Debra Zanella — LinkedIn

    "I am a strong advocate for the most vulnerable and disadvantaged people in our community"

    – Debra Zanella

    LinkedIn CEO games: Blocks, Unblocks, Re-Blocks, Unblocks, adds Profile pic she never had for years.

    Chief Executive Officer of Ruah Community Services.
    Chair of the Australian Alliance to End Homelessness.
    Co-Chair of Reconciliation WA.
    Former President of the Western Australian Council of Social Services.
    Advisor to the Ministerial Housing First Homelessness Advisory Group.
    Board member of the State Training Board.
    Leader of the 50 Lives 50 Homes campaign.
    Voice for women, children, and survivors of violence.
    Builder of trauma-informed spaces.
    Strategist of systemic change.

    Her public statements are clear: violence must be addressed at its roots. Homelessness must be ended, not managed. Systems must be accountable.

    She has spoken of the need for long-term healing, early intervention, and culturally safe care. She has called for urgent action to protect women and children.

    She has built a reputation on these principles.

    What follows is the documented reality of what occurred under her leadership.

    The silence.
    The neglect.
    The erasure.

    This is not conjecture.
    It is evidence.
    It is testimony.
    It is the truth behind the image.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Shannon Mony — Meridian Lawyers

    Shannon Mony — LinkedIn

    “I volunteer because I am a firm believer in the importance of giving back. I am also motivated by being a good role model for my two daughters.”

    – Shannon Mony, Project Didi

    Shannon Mony is listed as a Communications & Engagement Officer for a humanitarian NGO, speaking publicly about her belief in justice, consent, and trauma-informed care. Yet in her professional capacity as a lawyer for Meridian — LinkedIn, she has failed to respond to urgent, documented pleas for negotiation from an autistic man abandoned by Ruah.

    Shannon is also a registered speaker for upcoming CPD events including LawSense 2025, where she will present on:

    • Consent and mature minors
    • Trauma-informed mental health documentation
    • Ethics of patient confidentiality and family law reporting

    This contradiction between public image and legal silence matters. The Meridian Lawyers team — LinkedIn is actively defending an organisation accused of letting a disabled client starve and go unsupported for 8 years — yet has refused to negotiate.

    Mark Birbeck — LinkedIn also works for Meridian Lawyers — LinkedIn and connected with me on LinkedIn, read my profile and received screenshots, along with many Meridian partners.

    📄 Related readings:
    When Mental Health Services Are Broken (HBA Legal)
    HBA Legal Health Law Newsletter – May 2016

    🧠 Transparency is not an attack. It is a mirror. If you're uncomfortable seeing this, ask why it reflects poorly — and who chose silence.

    Silence at this point is not strategy — it is complicity. This legal firm is no longer a bystander.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Graham Donnelly — Ruah CFO

    Graham Donnelly — LinkedIn

    “Silence isn’t neutrality. It’s alignment with power.”

    – Systemic Reflection

    Chief Financial Officer of Ruah Community Services since 2016.
    Former finance manager at Glasnevin Trust.
    Former senior accountant at Activ Foundation.
    Member of Chartered Accountants Australia and New Zealand.
    Fellow of the Association of Chartered Certified Accountants.
    Holder of a BA in Accounting and Finance from Liverpool John Moores University.

    He oversees the financial integrity of an organization dedicated to supporting the most vulnerable. He ensures compliance, allocates resources, and upholds the fiscal responsibility that underpins every service Ruah provides.

    His role is not merely numbers on a ledger. It is the backbone of programs that claim to offer safety, dignity, and hope.

    What follows is an examination of how financial decisions, under his stewardship, have impacted real lives.

    The funding choices.
    The resource allocations.
    The priorities set.

    This is not an abstract analysis.
    It is a direct look at the consequences of financial governance.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    📬 Legal Stalling

    I politely reached out to their legal representative — along with Debra, Elsie, and Graham — earlier in the week. I offered a zero-pressure, no-expectation opportunity to open a quiet handshake negotiation, to be held before close of business Friday, 20 June 2025.

    As of 22nd June 2025 — no reply has been received.

    Ruah does not want a quiet, easy settlement.

    📄 Official Record of Delays — Documented Responses

    📬 CEO Response: Delayed Acknowledgment

    “We will be unable to meet your timeline of today. We will endeavour to provide a response by the end of next week.”
    — Debra Zanella, CEO, Ruah Community Services

    Received: 6 June 2025

    Context: This message was received 7 days after formal notification was sent (29 May 2025). No immediate response, no resolution — only a postponed deadline.

    📑 Complaints Procedure Timeline

    “Please note that this process may take up to 15 working days.”
    — Elsie Blay, Executive Manager, Services

    Received: 30 May 2025 (now 22nd June 2025, timeframe is now elapsed)

    Context: Ruah initiated a slow internal review process while risks remained unaddressed. They allocated themselves three full weeks to respond — despite the urgency already outlined.

    🔒 Legal Firm Closure Notice

    “We will not be engaging any further with you in respect of these issues.”
    — Shannon Mony, Meridian Lawyers (acting for Ruah)

    Received: 13 June 2025

    Context: This was issued just 7 days after the CEO promised a response — abruptly ending communication without follow-up.

    Author of a legal review into suicide-related duty-of-care failures at Alma Street (2016).
    Now representing Ruah — during a parallel period of unaddressed suicide risk.

    Louise Ardagh — Ruah Chair

    Louise Ardagh — LinkedIn

    Chair of the Board
    BA; Grad Dip Bus, GAICD

    Ex-CEO with expertise in telecoms, banking, and insurance.
    Leads strategy, governance, and customer transformation.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Monica Juricev — Ruah Director

    Monica Juricev — LinkedIn

    Board Director
    BBus, MBA

    Consultant and strategy advisor across public and higher education sectors.
    Specialist in change management and care-sector transformation.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Tony Curry — Ruah Director

    Tony Curry — LinkedIn

    Board Director
    EdD; MEd; BEd

    Former principal and educator.
    Now Director of Leadership at Catholic Education WA — bringing 40 years of public schooling experience.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Sylvia Meier — Ruah Director

    Sylvia Meier — LinkedIn

    Board Director
    B App Sc (Psych), GradDip OrgPsych, MBA, GAICD

    35+ years in mental health, disability, and population health.
    Currently Director of Population Health at WA Country Health Service and UWA lecturer.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Justine Roberts — Ruah Director

    Justine Roberts — LinkedIn

    Board Director
    BArch (Hons), BEnvDes

    CEO of Kingston Development.
    20+ years in property and urban development.
    Holds multiple advisory and governance roles across WA.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Braden Hill — Ruah Director

    Braden Hill — LinkedIn

    Board Director
    B.Ed, BA (Indigenous Studies), M.Res (Indigenous Education)

    Wardandi Noongar man.
    Equity and inclusion leader at Edith Cowan University.
    Expert in Indigenous education and queer identity.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    Michael Shanahan — Ruah Director

    Michael Shanahan — LinkedIn

    Board Director – Ruah Community Services

    Partner at McGrathNicol. Leads forensic services in Perth.
    Former ASIC investigator. Specialist in governance, fraud, and financial risk.

    His expertise is in exposing misconduct — yet he sits on the board of an organisation under investigation for 8 years of systemic neglect.

    [🗃️Digital footprint investigated] [log]

    🪳Executive Team — Ruah

    Mark Slattery

    Mark Slattery — LinkedIn

    Executive Manager, Strategy and Development

    30+ years in health and not-for-profit sectors across Australia and the UK. Former interim CEO at 360 Health. Board Director at ShelterWA, focused on client-centred outcomes and quality improvement.

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    Gail Beck OAM — LinkedIn

    Executive Manager, Cultural Integration

    Bibbulmun (Nyoongar) woman and Indigenous leader. Founder of several WA Indigenous initiatives. OAM (2012), Amnesty Award (2005), Rotary Award (2004).

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    Gail Beck
    Carmen Acosta

    Carmen Acosta — LinkedIn

    Executive Manager, Legal Services

    35+ years across disabilities, homelessness, mental health, domestic violence, and legal systems. Chair of AODCCC. Legal strategist and advocate for systemic response improvement.

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    🦠Ruah Ambassadors

    Rabia Siddique

    Rabia Siddique — LinkedIn

    Ruah Ambassador

    Former war crimes and human rights lawyer. Advocate for justice, equity, and trauma healing. Vocal face of systemic change and accountability.

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    Duc Pham

    Duc Pham — LinkedIn

    Ruah Ambassador

    Entrepreneur and founder of Premier Business Network. Leads corporate fundraising and awareness campaigns around homelessness and DV through RCWC.

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    Dr Sandy Chong

    Dr Sandy Chong — LinkedIn

    Ruah Ambassador

    Global gender equity advocate. UN SDG promoter. Active in youth advancement, domestic violence advocacy, and education reform.

    [📂Digital footprint investigated]

    🧠 System Impact Report — Ongoing Harm

    This system failure is actively harming me.

    I am now trapped in an autistic hyperfixation loop that I cannot break until a resolution is reached.

    I cannot eat properly.
    I cannot sleep properly.
    Basic hygiene is failing.
    I have run out of essential medication and do not feel safe enough to leave my house to get more.

    No support services are available — they are all implicated in the systemic failure.

    I am being left to collapse mentally and physically while this corporate system stalls and watches.

    This is no longer about the past.
    This is about what is being done to me right now — today.

    The archive remains live. The system is not still.

    #SharingSilence

    Recent Escalations — Intimidation and Unsafe Environment

    "Scheduling will be in touch to schedule a time for a home visit. Two staff will be in attendance. I will bring the relevant documents for your signature."

    Sheila Jay

    This was the initial Ruah contact, after several meltdowns had already occurred. The message led to a strong sense of intimidation — as if my home was about to be invaded and I would be forced to sign legal documents under duress.

    "Meet at the café for this appointment. We can then discuss the location of any potential future appointments after the initial assessment."

    — Rachael (Ruah Scheduling)

    This follow-up, after Sheila’s handover, indicates that first appointments are typically conducted in neutral public settings — not unrequested home visits. The contrast made it clear that Sheila’s insistence on a home visit was abnormal and, in this context, deeply threatening.

    For weeks now, I have been left feeling unsafe in my own home.

    Since that point, the following has occurred:

    • Police have been called to my home to try to remove me.
    • An Alma St crisis team has been called to try to remove me from my home.
    • Multiple calls from Alma St trying to pressure me into hospital admission.
    • Numerous phone calls from housing connected to this case.
    • Unexpected knocks from 'official' looking individuals at my door — at unpredictable times — causing acute distress.
    • Someone is attempting to contact my GP.
    • Someone is attempting to contact housing.

    No one has permission to contact these places on my behalf.

    I no longer feel safe to leave my home — or even to answer my door.

    I do not know who is contacting these parties — but it is not me.

    My home is my only safe space — and I am now being left to feel that it is under threat of invasion and coercion.

    This is an unacceptable escalation — and is compounding the direct harm already being caused.

    “Good Morning Kevin, I am in receipt of your emails below. I apologise for the delay in my reply, I do not work each day.”

    “I hope you are feeling better.”

    – Sgt. P.F.

    COMING SOON

    000 calls, welfare checks, coercion and official complaints raised.

    Before the Silence

    Shannon Mony LinkedIn viewed Sharing Silence profile

    The first documented recontact with Ruah occurred on 7 May 2025 at 12:23 PM, via a formal referral to the Stronger Ground program. An auto-response was received confirming receipt and promising follow-up within 24 hours.

    What followed was a series of delays and unprofessional behaviour from Sheila Jay. I attempted to escalate concerns, but she refused.

    Eventually, I was handed over to Nina Anderson and Jodie Harding. We had an in-person meeting. During that meeting, I was coerced into agreeing with things that weren’t true — not maliciously, but due to Jodie’s lack of trauma-informed training. I do not believe it was her fault.

    Afterwards, I was drawn into a disorganised email chain that triggered a meltdown. I asked repeatedly for clarity — just basic updates — and was instead told by Nina to “stop.” What I needed, and clearly stated, was regular communication to avoid being retraumatised after years of abandonment. I did not receive it.

    I expressed — in writing — that the treatment I was receiving was pushing me into suicidal ideation. I was left in that state for over 12 hours. Eventually, the next day, a welfare check was called. By then, I was completely shut down, isolated, and too afraid to leave my home.

    That is when I realised: they had been given ample opportunity to do the right thing — and didn’t. That’s when I chose legal action. Not out of anger, but to force accountability. To secure restitution.

    Before the silence came the search for a voice — a way to be heard, even for a moment, by the people who said they existed to help. Emails were sent. Messages left. Profiles viewed in silence. The same people who ignored direct contact still opened my digital presence, quietly observing — but never responding.

    Shannon Mony viewed the Sharing Silence page. No reply followed. No comment. No action. Just a trace — and then retreat. That moment marked something. A threshold. After that, the silence hardened. It became policy. Structure. Intentional. Tactical.

    What you are reading now began in that quiet. It was built from what they would not say — from what they refused to acknowledge.

    (Sent to Ruah — Final Outreach
    29th May 2025

    I don’t know who’s reading this. Maybe we’ve never met. Maybe you’re staff. Maybe you’re admin, management — or just someone who got CC’d.

    You didn’t ask for this. But now you have it. And I need you to hear me.

    I’m autistic. My mind is sharp — until I’m overwhelmed. Then everything collapses. I go non-verbal. My speech shuts down. My body freezes. People think I don’t understand. But I do. I just can’t get the words out when I need them most. And I remember everything.

    Ten years ago, Ruah assigned me a support worker. Her name was Mary.

    She stabilised my life. I started therapy. I got my children back. Supervised visits became overnights. My world was coming back together.

    Then — Mary left. No warning. No transition. No handover. Just gone.

    And everything fell apart.

    The NDIS changed. My funding stayed — but my supports vanished. A provider entered my home. They touched my things. They left. The money disappeared.

    I reported it. Nothing happened. Another provider came. They never returned. I still don’t know why. Calls followed. Cold. Pressuring. Overwhelming. There was no continuity. No care. I didn’t know who these people were. I still don’t.

    My GP left. I relapsed. First on opioids. Then on alcohol. My mother became terminal. I became her carer. Then she died.

    If anyone from Ruah reached out — I don’t remember. If they did, it didn’t hold.

    Because what I needed was someone who wouldn’t vanish when I couldn’t speak. Someone who understood what real crisis looks like. And in that darkness — I lost my children again.

    Not by court. Not by choice. But by silence.

    Ten years ago, we had a court-ordered agreement. I followed it. Every step. Every condition. My children were back in my life.

    Then I lost my support. Then my ex moved. Cut contact. And I didn’t have the strength, the knowledge, or the backing to fight it.

    I didn’t disappear. I was erased.

    Now they grow up believing I walked away. That I gave up. That I didn’t care.

    But I didn’t. I was alone. And no system — not one — stepped in to pull me back.

    I missed birthdays. I missed years. And I will never get that time back. And neither will they.

    You say you protect the vulnerable. But when I became one again — you weren’t there.

    You had the records. The notes. The risk flags. You saw it. You knew.

    And you did nothing.

    I’m not writing this to shame you. I’m writing this because you need to understand what silence costs.

    And now, if you’ve read this far — you’re holding it too.

    Because this letter didn’t land in one inbox. It’s being read. Right now. In offices. In meetings. Between emails. Between shifts. Quietly. Carefully.

    Someone is already rereading it. Someone is already wondering what this means. Maybe even asking questions.

    I don’t know what this letter will do. Maybe nothing. Maybe something.

    But whatever happens next — even if it’s silence again — it will say something.

    About you. About this system. About all of us.

    I’m Kev. I’ve carried this alone for too long. And I don’t know what’s left of me.

    Please.

    Born Wrong in Their World

    (Memoir Excerpt)

    I was born in the ’80s.

    It was a different world back then. No internet. No awareness. People didn’t speak of things they didn’t understand — they hid them. Buried them. Erased them with shame.

    I must’ve been around three. I don’t have clear memories from then — which tells me I was still very young. But I remember fear. That part never left. Not fear of anything in particular — just an ambient, silent dread.

    There are photos of me smiling. So I know, logically, that I must’ve laughed. Played. Been held.

    Preschool: Echoes of a Beginning

    I have faint memories of preschool. Fragments, like old film reels burned at the edges.

    There was a girl. Sarah? Sara? Something like that. Smaller than me. Long, straight light-brown hair. I don’t remember her face — just a blur framed by hair and movement.

    What I do remember is the feeling. Uncomfortable, unfamiliar — but not bad. Something like belonging, though I didn’t understand it then.

    Every time we walked through the preschool gates, she’d appear. Run up, jump, stretch, kiss me on the cheek, and vanish again. Routine. Predictable. Like clockwork.

    It wasn’t a one-off. Mum mentioned it once, offhand, like it amused her. So it must’ve happened often enough to etch itself into her memory too.

    To me, she’s not a person — she’s a pattern. And like most things from back then, she fades before I can ask her name.

    Autism flattens some things like that.

    Shutdown Memory

    One sticks hard. Recess, maybe. The others would run out to sandpits and swings. I stood still. Not from confusion — my body wouldn’t move.

    My mind screamed: Move.
    My body replied: Nope.
    Mind: MOVE!
    Body: hehehe… watch this.

    And I pissed myself. Not because I wasn’t toilet trained. I was. But because the shutdown was total.

    It happened more than once. Until someone realised: if a shadow walked with me, I could move. I just needed to feel safe.

    “Do you know how to use the toilet, Kevin?”
    Nod.
    “Are you sure?”
    Nod.
    “Kevin?”
    Face screws up. Meltdown begins.

    Because repeating myself isn’t easy.
    Because being asked the same question over and over triggers panic — not understanding.
    Because autism doesn’t always mean “different.”
    Sometimes it means done explaining.

    Asperger’s, and Erasure

    The word came back: Asperger’s.
    But instead of answers, it brought denial.

    “No. Our child is not retarded.”

    That was the end of it. The diagnosis vanished. No support. No accommodation. No acknowledgement. It would not be spoken of again — not until decades later, when a dying woman muttered truths between her regrets.

    The Father

    “My son will not be a retard.”
    “Don’t be a pussy boy.”
    “Men don’t cry.”
    “I’ll beat the man into you.”

    That was my father. A man who clung to the memory of a short stint in the army reserves like it made him something. Our house was a training ground. Discipline. Routine. Domination. I was a child. He treated me like a soldier.

    I wasn’t broken.
    The world was.
    And I was being punished for not conforming to a world that refused to make space for difference.

    "I’ve never asked to be treated differently.
    I’ve only ever asked for the world to change — because we are different."

    – Me

    Preview: Early Memory Fragment

    Behind the Chair (Memoir Excerpt)

    The memories are scattered — some vague, others sharp in feeling but blurred in detail.
    They were likely buried, either by trauma or by survival instinct. I don’t know.

    But I know the pain. And I know the confusion.

    My sister was three years older than me.
    She was also harmed — I believe by our father. Whether she was told to act the way she did, or whether it was trauma acting through her, I can’t know.
    She cut contact with the family years ago, blamed me, and vanished. I never understood why. Still don’t.

    One of my earliest memories is of an armchair in her bedroom.
    I was hiding behind it — not from danger exactly, just… hiding.
    She was there too. And she told me to do things.
    I didn’t understand them. I was three. She was six.
    I didn’t know what “right” or “wrong” was. Just that something felt off.

    I remember another setting — under the blankets.
    Things happened there too. Things that happened more than once.
    She gave me instructions I didn’t understand — not then, not fully even now.
    She used words I didn’t know, told me to act out things I didn’t yet have a body for.

    I don’t know how long it went on.
    I don’t know how often.
    But I remember the pattern.
    That’s how my brain holds things — not in sequence, but in repetition.

    This is what my earliest years looked like.
    Not joy. Not laughter. Just confusion, pressure, obedience, and a sense of something being deeply wrong.

    I don’t have good memories until maybe age 10 or 11 — and even those are tangled in later pain.
    But they exist, small as they are.
    And I hold onto those few flecks of light — because on the dark days, they’re all I’ve got.

    ✴ Internal Link Trail Detected

    Even after public links were severed, access from sharingsilence.carrd.co persisted. The Carrd link was saved — bookmarked or cached. Referrals to the .xyz domain came from inside Ruah systems. The link circulated after its removal — quietly, deliberately.

    The path was erased. They walked it anyway.

    Connection wasn’t an accident. It was a choice. Silence wasn’t ignorance — it was consent. They saw. And they stayed.

    The network expands. Some watch. Some wait. But no one can say they weren’t warned.

    [ ◼ Trace locked. Logged. Witnessed. ◼ ]

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